Off to work I go! Well, on Monday…

After one glorious year off, it is now time to go back to work. I have had a lot of people ask me how I feel and to be honest, I have mixed feelings about this event.

There was never any doubt that I was going to return to work. But a little part of me is nervous because a year is a long time to be off anything and just as I was going off on leave, there was a systems overhaul and process change which I will now not be familiar with. Additionally, I work in an industry where it is not unusual to find people still at work well past 9pm and so, as a new mum with a child to pick up from nursery by 6pm, this stresses me out a little bit. However, a larger part of me is excited about the new challenges ahead because I love what I do and enjoy being busy. I work with some really lovely and amazing people and have received some excited messages about my return to the team. I am also super happy to be getting paid again.

Then, my mum mind kicks in and I feel like I am not ready for the reality that my little girl will have to be in the care of someone else for most of the week. And so quite often in the past few months, I have found myself wondering “what if I decide not to return to work?” I have even looked into the possibility of starting some baby group or the other in the area we live in. I was really not prepared for the feelings of not wanting to leave my child alone. I will carry on researching my options but will not be quitting work in the immediate future.

Thankfully though, she has settled in very well at nursery and so, some of my mum issues are a little bit eased. As a result of having some time off whilst at nursery, I realised the other day that yes, I love spending time with my little girl but will be grateful for:

• some day time chat with adults
• fresh stationery from the stationery cupboard for my desk
• being able to wear my heels again…no use in a Flat running after a toddler.

So, as the new chapter begins, I’ll definitely have to learn to strike up a home/work/blog balance. Let me know if you have any tips to share.

Milolo xx